Ever feel like your life is a tornado of Somethings? (been watching to much Stormchasers)

Something something SomEthIng
     SOMETHING something SOMETHING
          somethingsomethingsomethingsomething
    And another something and another
      Something something SomEthIng
     SOMETHING something SOMETHING
          somethingsomethingsomethingsomething
               And another something and another
            Somethingsomething SomEthIng
                    And another something and
                        something SomEthIng
                        somethingsomethingsomething
                              something something
                                    somethingsomething
                                          SOMETHING
                                                something
                                                     something              (well you get the picture)

I mean just a month, a week, a day.. where you just want to walk outside and calmly say or yell ” hey time out please.”
Even just now trying to write/ vent this out. Two somethings no three. Right in my way. I had to ask my daughter sweetly and then to be dramatic in my Gollum voice, Please I needs it, I needs to write, Its my PRECIOUS. (We’ve been reading the Hobbit)( she says I do a good job with the voices)

Oh well I feel this way today. Lucky that feelings are fleeting. I feel calmer now. Just a bit irked. Irked at getting the hives. Not knowing what is causing the hives. Can’t afford to find out yet what is causing the hives. Medicine side effect irritability. I should be grateful I even have some meds for it. Not that they really worked this time around. I have a few or twenty other things on my mind at the moment as well that are giving me grief. It is alright. Perseverance. Prayer. A nice soothing bath in baking soda. Maybe a cheeseburger too. My cheeseburger intake has been low since I started working out. Speaking of working out, err writing that out, did that today. Should be thankful because I might have been a snarling beast had I not.

I hate it when i wrestle, wrestle, wrestle, with things I cannot do anything about. Do what I can when I can. Deal with it. /cough … isn’t your blog called how to deal? oh ya I should also add that I should stop wrestling and trust God with it all, too.

Thanks for letting me vent.

Peace, love, and Jesus,

helmschick –out

I have been a bit quiet around here. It seems I haven’t had as much to say. I don’t so much mind it. When I’m quiet I can take stock of my thoughts and observe what is going on. Sometimes it becomes the perfect opportunity for writing. The quiet is preparing me. 

I have kept with my workout. I have fit into a pair of pants that I haven’t worn in three years. It is very exciting and encouraging. My goal is to fit into two other pairs I have. My bke’s i can get on but still far from buttoning. My grey capris, I can get on and button. They will look better though when they aren’t as tight. Can’t wait, but I’m not in a hurry. Slow and steady baby, YA! My pants also inspired a poem.

My Pants…

These ones fit.

And these I am working on…

and here is my poem…

Fit

Fitting in
Fitting in with friends
Fitting in with family
Fitting in with the crowd
Trying to fit in,
Is it giving you doubts?

Doubts about right and wrong
Doubts about hanging around
Or why you are trying so hard to fit in
Because maybe it’s wearing you thin.

Thin on patience
Thin on ice
All this fit,
IS IT,
worth the price?

Fitting into jeans
Getting fit
Throwing a fit
Your mind is it fit?

You fit in where you are accepted
Accepted for you
Loved because you are you
Be true
To who you are inside

Don’t hide it
Exercise it
Surround yourself with positive encouraging people
And be who God made you to be.
Live free

Peace, love, & Jesus,

helmschick –out

Sometimes it is hard to be a woman. It stinks that mother nature turns you into Oscar the grouch for three to five days a month. Also this time around I have been mad-crazy hungry. I think I need some dark chocolate, too.

Today was definitely a Monday. I made it to the gym, which is good. But, I didn’t leave my grumps behind. Maybe I should have stayed longer. I should have gone to the grocery store and bought some cookie dough. I watched Tv with the kids and took a nap. Nap might have helped a little. Even though I got plenty of sleep last night. Some days I feel older than I look.

Mmmm a big healthy salad with lots of veggies sounds really good. However I’m not motivated enough to go to the store at this hour for it. Tomorrow.

I suppose this evening is already getting better. I did some reading. I chugged some water and I planned whats for dinner. Now for cooking.

Tomorrow I will eat greens. Tomorrow I will be less grumpy. Tomorrow I will buy cookie dough.

helmschick –out

“I like to see a man proud of the place in which he lives.  I like to see a man live so that his place will be proud of him.”  ~Abraham Lincoln
“How important it is for us to recognize and celebrate our heroes and she-roes!”  ~Maya Angelou

“Ask not what your country can do for you; ask what you can do for your country”. ~ John F. Kennedy
“Great thoughts speak only to the thoughtful mind, but great actions speak to all mankind.” ~ Theodore Roosevelt

God Bless Our Troops

God bless America
God bless our troops

God bless their sacrifices
God bless their selflessness

God bless their call of duty
God bless their love, sweat, blood, and tears.

God bless their families
God comfort them
And calm their fears.

God bless our troops
God bless our freedom
God bless our Country

God be with them.
God lead them.

I have a brother and a cousin in the Army. My grandfather was in the Army as well. He served in the Korean War. I am very grateful for the service of all our brave men and women in the United States  Armed Forces. Thank you for your devotion, courage, and sacrifice. 

helmschick –out 

Persevere – to persist in anything undertaken; maintain a purpose in spite of difficulty, obstacles, or discouragement; continue steadfastly.

On the wall at my gym the word Persevere is written.  Four years ago  when I first joined, I would see that word everyday, except Sunday .(Always took Sunday off) It was a constant reminder and encouragement to me. I was going through an extremely difficult time and I felt discouragement weigh heavy on me everyday. God used it as a reminder for me to press on in my day and trials. I lost fifteen pounds in four months. Just in time for my 30th birthday. However my stress plagued me and I developed TMJ and was in too much pain to keep exercising.

They say it takes 21 days to form a habit. I am almost there! I have been working out everyday except Sundays, since May 1st. My husband had 31 sessions of paid training that he had not used. So, I‘ve taken advantage of them. I workout with a trainer twice a week. I am getting back into shape and toning up. My face still has its fits but it has not incapacitated me. I started out 3O mins a day. Last week I was able to do an hour a day, every day. (one day doing as long as an hour and a half.) I am so happy. It feels so good to be moving again! I can’t wait to see where I am in a couple of months.

In times of difficulty persevere. You will overcome your obstacles. It doesn’t matter how long it takes. Keep fighting for it. It’s funny to me how four years ago the word spoke to me as a motto for my life and it still is. It was obviously written to help us obtain our goals in the gym. To stay the course and not give up. No white flags! Do not surrender! You can do it! In  life we all need some perseverance and encouragement.

Perseverance

Perseverance
And keeping the faith.
Faith that can move mountains.
Faith that can, is,
And has moved my mountains of doubt.

Perseverance
And finding peace.
Peace that surpasses all understanding.
A calm and peace that transcends
Lifes whirlwinds and thunderstorms.
No residue of anxiety
No fear

Perseverance
And trusting, surrendering to God
Letting go, accepting
Believing and knowing
Obediently following
And holding on to His love.

 helmschick –out

They Call Me Momma

They wake
The moment sunlight
Begins to light the room
They are anxious
To begin each day
And they call me Momma

They holler for juice
For just about everything
They even play
Let’s make a deal
And they call me Momma

They call me Momma
I call them my children
Or monkeys
Or trouble
Above all
I call them precious
And they teach me a lot.

They illustrate truths
Help mold my character
They hug me
They remind me
Of things when I forget
And they call me Momma

They call me Momma
Many times throughout the day
And though it might
Make one crazy
It’s the best feeling to know
I am their Momma
God entrusted them to me
(How scary for them)

They call me Momma
And I am proud
To own the title!
 

– helmschick

This is a poem I wrote a few years ago in honor of being a Momma. A few things have changed. They don’t so much holler for juice anymore. Now it’s more like, “Can I play xbox?”, “Can I have a soda?”. Before long it will be “Can I go out with my friends?”, “Can I borrow the car?”. So not ready for that!

I am so blessed to be a mom. My kids are awesome.

Fear cannot live in my heart
Fear cannot live in my mind
If it does it will take the best of me
It will rob me of courage
It will hold me captive
It will strip me of my identity

So Fear will not live here in this house
Fear will not live here in my heart
Nor in my mind
I was made to be courageous
If God is for me who can be against me
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me

I will accept those things I can not change
Others hearts
Others minds
Others choices
I have done my part
I am moving on in my life
I will not be afraid because God is with me.

I have no shame
I have no regret
And I will not fear failing
Because I will never be perfect
I will fall down
I will get back up again

I will continue to grow
My warrior princess heart
And follow Christ everyday of my life

Believing
Boldly Trusting
Brave

– helmschick

Today I am so happy
I must smile.
Today I am so blessed
and happy,
So many things in the past,
Have stood in my way.

Peace flows through my soul
I have been made whole.
My present and future
are no longer shadowed by the past

I am so grateful
There is so much love.
And joy follows me daily
I love that I get to experience it
And share it
Today I am so happy.

I love the sound
of my children laughing
and singing.
I love the sound
of paws pitter-patter across the floor
or wet kisses on my nose
Today I am so happy

I love the sun illuminating the sky
and the sound of birds chirping
I love that today I am so happy
I love that I have joy.
I love that I can see how blessed I am
And I love that the Lord has brought me here

Today I am so happy
I must smile.
So many things in the past,
have stood in my way.
Not today,
for today I am so happy.

– helmschick

These are the words that have been boldly on my mind. These are the themes in my life right now. What my heart seems to keep centering on and tuning into. It’s certainly not coincidence that moments, stories, books, and TV show episodes have caught my attention on these subjects. The Lord never ceases to amaze me. I get excited about these things and then I think uh-oh what am I about to learn or be taught.

helmschick –out

Commitment is a word that can spark fear as it rolls off the tongue or as eyes read over it. A word that can be associated with an almost never ending series of “What Ifs”. Commitment is a word that attaches itself to other words such as trust, binding, contract, the end, vulnerable, life, love, respect, renewal, and I’m sure I could go on. Whatever words come to mind for you really depend on your outlook of commitment.

Everyone has been affected by commitment. Everyone has had a fear of commitment at some point in their life. Whether it was a romantic relationship, a friendship, an engagement, a contract, or a relationship with Christ. Most want to know what it will cost them. It is a valid question. How much time, money, effort, and self will I have to give? When you really think about it just how much of yourself you’re willing to give is probably a good wager of how much you will get back. With any relationship (and I am talking about a deeper more intimate kind of relationship)vulnerability, trust, time, and respect are requirements.

If the word commitment makes us gasp for air or sends us into a frenzy of panic, we should definitely take the time to figure out why. Perhaps there is good reason. Perhaps it’s a good warning sign. Sometimes a person has burnt us one to many times. However, sometimes we have things we need to let go of and heal from. Trust can be rebuilt. Love can be renewed. Respect can be learned. Fear itself should never have a hold over us and no one should be able to rob us completely of love and vulnerability. We were made for connection.

I remember an episode of Buffy, the Vampire Slayer called Fear Itself. Everyone was so afraid of the fear demon that was going to manifest itself at some point in the episode. In the end it did and it was only a few inches tall. Who makes fear big?!

Never let fear get the best of you. If commitment scares you get to the core of why and face it, be honest. Work through it and heal. There are people and choices out there that are worth giving to.

Peace, love, & Jesus,

helmschick –out