Frustration is your brain trying to figure out the why’s of people’s behavior.

helmschick –out

They judge you if you Do
They judge you if you Don’t
They judge you because they can

They tell lies
And despise you,
Who really knows why?

Are they bitter?
Are they jealous?
Or just plain selfish

They send guilt messages
They try to manipulate

Are they broken in anguish?
Do they ever feel remorse?

Are their hearts so completely hardened
that they’ve lost all their hope?

–helmschick

Currently Dubbed & Freq’d: A Remix Project By TobyMac see related Toby Mac was on the view this morning. He rocked it out and loved what he had to say. Love me some Toby Mac.

 Persuaded is the word of the day.

I’ve been persuaded to doubt what I do, how I write, and sharing it.Then I was persuaded to quit. However now I have been persuaded to make a statement. Doubt and fear are not allowed here!! It’s my blog and I will write if I want. Not only that but, I write because I am led to.

It’s my Blog
It’s therapy
It’s ranting and perhaps rambling
Love and joy
Pain and grief
It’s my blog
It’s my life

It’s being a Christian
Being a woman
Being a wife
It’s Being a mother
It’s my blog
It’s my life

It’s random?!?
It’s ordered
Relevant
A piece of Me
It’s my blog
It’s my life

It’s faith
It’s trust
Patience
Learning
Being obedient
It’s making mistakes
It’s my blog
It’s my life.

It’s hope
It’s How I roll
It’s How to Deal
It’s my blog
It’s my life.

Peace, love, & Jesus,

helmschick -out

P.S. I got me some TobyMac stuck in my head,

“Cause we wanna rise, We wanna touch the other side, We wanna soar, We wanna reach right out for more”  TobyMac, Tonight

What I have read so far this year:

Men Are Like Waffles Women Are Like Spaghetti
Uncharted TerriTORI
The Vow
Thereby Hangs A Tale
The Lucky One

What I am currently reading:

Cast Of Characters ( Common People in the Hands of An Uncommon GOD)
The Love Revolution
Hope for Your Heart

How do you choose a book to read? Does a catchy title grab your attention? Does color or artwork play a part? Is your choice dependent on what you are going through at the moment? Does time of year play a part? Do you research books online or browse certain topics? If someone suggests a book do you check it out? Do you like buying ebooks or are you old fashioned like me? Do you love going to the bargain book section at the bookstore? Do you have a favorite bookstore? Do you prefer fiction or nonfiction? Do you like biographies?

I love a catchy title. A lot of times what I am going through at the time can influence what I read. I love Christian living books From time to time I enjoy a good nonfiction book. My favorite bookstore is Mardels. However I love bookstores in general. I love bargain books, too. I love it when I can get four books for fifteen dollars it makes me feel special. When someone suggests a book I like to look it up online and read an excerpt out of it.

I love to read. I love how books can teach you things and help comfort you. I love to read about scriptures, what they mean and how they are relevant. I love to read about real people, what they go through, how they cope, and what they learn. I love a good redemption story. I love to read about miracles. When others share their stories we learn things and we learn that we are not alone in our trials. God has spoken to me through so many different books. I can’t imagine my life without them.

Peace, love, & Jesus,

helmschick –out

Currently The Love Revolution By Joyce Meyer see related

One of the books I have been reading is called the Love Revolution. (Anytime I read or hear the word Revolution, I automatically hear the Beatles song queue… You say you wanna Revolution, well you know,We all wanna change the world.) This book is about different ways we can help and show love to others. Whether you can give money, time, or a smile even. A smile can change a persons day, no lie.

P.S. Let us also not forget our please and thank yous. They go along way and are pretty simple acts of kindness.

For the past eight years God has been working on relationships in my life. First it started with my relationship with Him. I got saved when I was in seventh grade. I believed in God and I believed Jesus was the son of God, and asked Him to live in my heart. There was so much I still needed to learn about being a christian. That learning/maturing didn’t really come till later. In 2004, I rededicated my life to Christ and sought Him like never before. I wanted to know what it meant to be a Godly woman, wife, and mother. I knew my life was not complete without Him. During that time I started writing and reading all the time. I wanted as much wisdom and truth as I could get my hands on. I had written a few poems/monologues before when I was in high school, but this writing I started was different. It came so easy and all I had to do was pick up a pen when the words started flowing. I was so excited about how God was using me and ready to really live. But, I was going through a really difficult time in my marriage and I was really sad. Then God’s peace embraced me and I knew that no matter what everything was going to be okay.

Next God revealed to me a friendship that wasn’t working. It was getting in the way of time with my husband and time with my kids. I had to learn to say no even though it was difficult. I didn’t want to make my friend angry.

After that God revealed things in my marriage that weren’t right yet.Things had not changed years previous. Things had just been covered up and never worked out. I am so thankful that God first worked on me and drew me closer to Him before He worked on my marriage.These were the hardest years of my life. But, God kept saying Believe, Trust me, and Persevere.

Then God showed me that my relationship with my parents needed to change. We’d had a rocky relationship to begin with. I needed to finally stand up for myself.

Of all the relationships only half have been reconciled. My relationship with God in 2004 and my relationship with my husband in 2008. In any loving relationship there has to be forgiveness. Forgiveness only takes one person. But, in order to heal you have to forgive the wrongs/hurts so you can become a whole and healthy person. Forgiveness is a process. Reconciliation takes two. You have to be able to admit when you are wrong, apologize, and change. We all have to take responsibility for our own actions and stop blaming others or trying to justify bad choices. In love we owe it to each other. Love does not fail. People fail at love. If we would stop being self centered and more self controlled not only would our own lives be blessed, but we would bless those around us.

Peace, love, & Jesus,

helmschick –out

When Easter is near there are so many memories that replay on my heart and in my mind. First, I am so grateful for Jesus. He was so undeserving of the brutality He endured. He gave His life for mine. I never want to forget or take His gift for granted. In 2004, I rededicated my life to Christ. He has taught me so much. I have healed so much. He has comforted me through so many terrifying storms. I’ve said before and I will say again, He has been at the Helm for this chick always and He has been my anchor. I have been set free from lies, fear, trying to measure up, and so many heartaches. I am so thankful to be restored and renewed. My heart sings at the joy I experience because of my Savior.

“My Savior loves, My Savior lives, My Savior’s always there for me, My God He was, My God He is, My God He’s always gonna be”
                      -Aaron Shust

Second, Easter reminds me of the birth of my youngest brother. Easter morning before mom went into labor, we woke up to enjoy our Easter baskets. When we looked into his crib we found that the Easter bunny had left a basket for him as well. It was a purple basket with a chicky and a bunny sitting inside. I was ten years old at the time and I thought that was too cool. However when mom brought Spenser home from the hospital I thought that was even better.

Third, I think of my cousin Courtney. It was the last holiday we spent with her. She was four years old and full of life. She was a wild child with a sweet scruffy voice. She loved to swing and would ask you to swing her high enough to give Jesus a high-five. She loved Jesus and she would pray with my grandma at naptime. Her favorite thing that Easter was the egg hunt. When her other grandparents called that evening to talk to her, she tried to show them all her Easter eggs through the phone. She was precious and her life and death were a witness to us. (Someday I will tell you the rest of the story.)

Fourth, and probably kinda silly, but none the less, a memory. I remember one Easter when I was in highschool, I got the tape, yes tape Jesus Freak  by DC Talk. Yes the Easter bunny brought it! And I foundly remember my brother, father, and I head banging to it in the living room.

These are a few of the things that come to mind for me. What memories stir for you?

Peace, Love, & Jesus,

helmschick –out

Ever notice how music can be therapeutic? My family loves music.The kids and I listen to a bunch of different genres and they typically like what I pick out.Lately we’ve been enjoying cranking up some TobyMac and opening the sunroof, rolling down the windows. My husband and I have a bit of a different taste in music, even though some of his lighter metal has grown on me. (I’m completely out on screaming) He notices first the rhythm and instruments of the music. I listen to the words. Here is a list of songs I like to listen to when i feel discouraged or down. In no particular order.

1. Better Than A Hallelujah    Amy Grant
2.Consume Me                      DC Talk
3. You Never Let Go              Jeremy Camp
4.Before the Morning             Josh Wilson
5.Beautiful, Beautiful              Francesca Battistelli
6.Strong Enough                   Matthew West
7.Made me Glad                    Miriam Webster
8.Born Again                          Newboys
9.Resurrection                       Nicol Sponberg
10.I’m With You                      Nichole Nordeman and Amy Grant
11.Lead Me                             Sanctus Real
12.Trust In Jesus                    Third Day
13. Born Again                        Third Day
14.Revelation                          Third Day
15.Never Let Go                      David Crowder Band
16. Wholly Yours                     David Crowder Band
17.Lose My Soul                      TobyMac
18.Irene                                    TobyMac
19.Unfailing Love                      Chris Tomlin
20.Lay It Down                          Nichole Nordeman
21.Hold Me Jesus                     Rich Mullins
22.Elijah                                    Rich Mullins
23.My Savior My God                Aaron Shust
24.Let It Fade                            Jeremy Camp
25.Great Light of the World       Bebo Norman
26.Strong Tower                        Kutless
27.Mighty to Save                      Laura Story
28.Whatever You’re Doing        Sanctus Real
29.Bring the Rain                       MercyMe
30.Love Is Here                         Tenth Avenue North

Peace, Love, & Jesus,

helmschick –out

I want to leave a legacy. I want to make my “mark”. When my time here is over I want to know that I left something behind for my loved ones. I want to leave a legacy of love, faith, and obedience to God. I want my children and husband to know without a doubt that I love them. I tell them everyday and I hope that I show them everyday. I want them to understand that love is a verb. Love is also unconditional. I want them to look at my life and see that I had faith and I put it in God and trusted Him. I don’t care to be famous. I just want to accomplish what God made me for.

My mission is to live a life obedient to God, using my talents for His glory, and fulfilling His purpose and plan for my life. It is my hope that I live up to this mission. I try everyday to live my life in the light of His truth and love. Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger by the grace of God. I continue to persevere through pain and find joy.

Peace, love, and Jesus,

helmschick –out

I am loving my new Xanga layout. I really like the bright blue and green colors.(funny enough they are my EQ2 guild colors, and not done on purpose) I like the background a lot, it makes me think of a wilderness or desert. It reminds me that no matter what we are trying to deal with, whether it is a wilderness or just the daily trials of life, “How to Deal” remains the same. Faith, love, obedience, and trusting God is how we survive, heal and live (experience joy too). I love the trees because they look a little ragged and weathered, but still standing. Plus, I really dig trees in general. I think they are beautiful. Maybe I love trees because subconsciously I think about how firmly rooted they are and I thinks it’s kind of romantic they can live for hundreds of years quietly people watching. 

 I took sometime off from Xanga because I was experiencing some of my own personal wildernesses. Now, I am back blogging again and excited to see where God is taking me.Woot for new chapters! And Woot I’m back writing again!

Peace, love, and Jesus,

helmschick –out